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Ya'll don't even know. First and foremost. Go watch video. i know i know. its 2 hours. but jussst watch it like you would watch a movie. ESPECIALLY if you like minecraft and like roleplay, and everything yeas.

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i didn't think i would enjoy this so much. Its one of those social experiment things where the players build the story naturally. It's completely nonscripted and the story that emerged is just great. There is a main protagonist and somehow great villains came out of it too. War, tension, fun subplots and bits, amazingly produced, and cgreat music too. I enjoyed it so much, I have that fanart urge. (prob won't hahppen tho ;-; i have trouble making fanart dangit)

My favoirte character/ side situation was the news guy. side something (forgot his name). He was out trying to make conspiracies using his fradulent newspaper company. He made actual posters and propaganda. he even brought the warden out of the ground, named it rising lava, and let it have a rampage. All to run fuel his conspiracy that the volcano's lava would rise. (freaked the players out because the chat stated "killed by rising lava". He died in the process, but it was such a funny situation and a great legacy lmao.

there was also the saps main plot. I love a framed character YES. all he wanted was to build his litle vacation home :(

I learned later that people were shipping the protagonist wiht the villain, which is hilarious. i didn't see it but i can if i want >:).

I am just so addrenaline filled after tahtAHHH its great you should watch it stranger who reads this its a good video, grab some popcorn, you will enjoy it :D

Truly, I don't know much backround about this show. I assume it's an indie show because i had seen the first episode on youtube awhile ago. But idk. i think its originally russian?? also not sure.

Now, i don't think this is finished yet. its on episode 6 and it says "season 1". so there is probably more ot come. That being said. I am capitvated already. I have so many questions and questions and MUST KNOWS AHHHH. I already love the characters and am living for the implied angst happening here ;-;

i feeel so baddddd AHH, poor Dimitri and everyone else. Episode 5? had me jsut terrible. My heart was aching for this guy when he fell in the grave . His leg and having to be saved by andrew...

ok questions. Dmitri hates andrew. But like why though? In the extra episode, Andrew accidentally? stabs him with a kabob squwer thing (idk if thats how its spelled :0 ). But is that enough to make Dmitri internalize a hatred towards him? to the point of feeling inferior? idk but i feel like there is more. Also, am i imagining that Andrew and elijah had a thing going on? like perhaps dating?

so many questions ahhhhh

I'm counting this under anime because i started watching the anime first. after the cliff hanger on that one episode with the

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crash. i went and looked up the manga. This story is so thuroughly detightful. And the author is so funny. I loved it. It's about a kid in middle school getting wrapped up with a yakuza guy who asks him to teach him how to sing so he won't lose a kareoke battle and get a terrible tattoo. the kid is obviously scared but also dealing with the stress of loosing his voice to puberty. It's really cute and the dynamic is funny and very random.

unfortunetly, im a sucker for fear shit so love it when the kid finally cracks after encountering a scary thug. He ends up lashing out against the yakuza guy but regrets it when the yakuza guy ends up in a crash and believes he died.

He rushed to the kareoke battle and the other yakuza members prank him just learn that the original guy is still alive.

its so dopey and random, look at this photo of them. they looks so... stiff ?

apparently, there is a sequel where the kid is starting college and starts developing feelings for him ?, which is a bit strange because of the age gap. i will say, the original is not bl.

Wooow :O! this movie was so pretty. Was released in 2001. It's kinda like a modern Tower of Babel story, where people try to play god and pay miserably. In this story, they try this by creating and implementing robots into society. There's a bunch of polital things happening. war, rebellion, civil unrest, betrayal, and robots. feels a little relevent with all the ai stuff happening. But it doesn't really take a stance against robots, more just against the leaders trying to play god.

The animation was just insane. Makes me so glad these things exists. I always hear so much about how "good" animation jsut can't be made. But icall bullshit, cuz this is crazy good. i think there's cgi in it too, but its in that era where it still looks charming and really well crafted. kinda like the treasure planet cgi in my opinion. also don't quote me on that, i vaguely looked up if it even had cgi in it, it thin it did

i just suprised i never heard about this one untill i did randomly. its great :D !!

i mean just look at some of these backgrounds

ahh naaaahhhhh. i really like the artstyle. and the premise was really interesting. Basically, this guy Gongchan is a very fearful lad. He channels his overwhelming fear into a horror novel that he posts online. This other guy (black haired, terrible with names :0 )posts a negative comment, and ever since then, he starts seeing the horrific monsters that come out in each chapter. So he goes on a mission to find the other and request he stop writing. Turns out, the author lives right above him.

See? great premise, and its bl. (now spoilers)

however, i feel like they just dropped or lost it at some point. Instead of exploring the horror, and why its appearing in real life. They just make conflict by introducing a weird side character who ends up having a crush on both of them. WHYYYYY it was goind so well :(. I hate love triangles, esspecially unnessesesary ones.

they never even answer the question as to why the ghosts even show up >:O... if u just like th romance tho, i guess its fine. still loved the art

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This book was a doozy. It was written by Leif Enger. I picked it up at the library because the title sounded interesting. I also saw the sailboat and thought, "ok. sailor book?"

It's bascially about a guy named Rainy who goes through the tragedy of losing his wife. He then spends the rest of his time copeing and running from the people who murdered her. He goes out onto Lake Superior, deals with its storms and rising corpses, and also the strange people on nearby islands. He also meets a little girl which kinda growns into a cute father daughter type thing.

I enjoyed the writing style. It was told from Rainy's perspective and it winded a lot in its story telling. For example, the author would mention one thing or character early on, then come back to it after going on a relevent tangent.

I thought the ending was a bit strange. Rainy eventually gets caught by his persuers and is kept on a massive boat for awhile. While he's there, the dude who was chasing him made him play is bass to help him sleep. Which is wild ngl. I felt really bad for Rainy. He genuinely didn't deserve all the shit he went through.

I did have some unasnwered questions. The guy that was chasing him was named Weryck or something like that. He was chasing Rainy because they housed a refugee who had escaped that boat. Rainy's wife had just gotten caught in the cross fire. That being said, Rainy arrives at a town while running away from Werryck. He finds a lost and found poster for the refugee boy (who had seprarteed from him at some point). When he called the number, thinking it might be the boy's parents, Werryck was on the other end. How did he know where Rainy was going? anyway.

There was one part that had me fuming aswell. Rainy and the little girl were trying to get there boat past a drawbridge, but the bridge was too low. So they approach the guy working there, who is acting off and charges like $400. They don't have that kind of money, and end up negotiating back to the original price of like $43. When they finally pay, the draw bridge man goes, "i can't let you through right now, here's a ticket. bring itin the morning and they should let you through". So they do that. NExt morning, they come with the ticket, and the new guy says, "this ticket was for yesterday". ATOTAL mess. they didn't let them through. Rainy even went to find the original guy's house, and he threatened to call the cops on him. I was so mad.

yuh it was a good read, a lil strange tho

tw this story has themes of suicide, bullying, and domestic violence.

goodness gracious, i should really calm down on watching anime impulsivley. this was a rough watch. i had seen clips of it on tiktok and randomly watched it. i stayed because im a sucker for unique artstyles. i knew there was bullying in this but i didn't think it would make me cry. i thought i kinda knew was going with the story too... i was so wrong.

i though takopi would figure out that everything was not all happiness and learn how to help the girls. but it just got worse and worse. it's even hard for me to "pick sides" when both girls and the boy were going through it with abusive families. just pain and more pain.

the ending left me really confused but at least nobody died. except, literally everyone died. even though takopi kept going back in time, the story showed that all of those versions still exist for the people he left behind.

i'm gonna lose it

ahahaha adding another anime to my brain collection. I will definelty forgot i watched this eventually

this one is super cute. a high school romance between a shy girl and and popular guy. I watched it in the background because its not very high stakes and its pretty easy to tell what is going on. It was a little generic as far as romances but i liked it cuz it was wholesome. I honestly don't have much to say about this one.

oh wait, the ending made me enraged while i was watching though. I really can't stand miscommuncation tropes. ESPECIALLY when they ALREADY CONFESSED TO EACH TOEHR. oh wow it was rough to watch those last couple of episodes. I kept thinking about that meme with the guy who goes, "if you like her and she likes you, then WAHTs THE PROblem". they both confessed to each other and they STILL managed to butcher it in their own minds.

other than that, supr cute :D

also fuck this guy the audacity of this man, hated every second of him >:(

i don' read a lot of books but i'm working on changing that. i have a library card, so i plan on going and picking up a couple books to read up to their deadline. this time i picked a book called: The Cat Who Could Read Backwardsby Lilian Jackson Braun. was published in 1966 and my dad chose it to me because i didn't know what to read. also, he used to read this series when he was younger.

Anyway it was a nice read. it's about a newpaper guy, art galleries, murder, and a cat.

i had a good time, but i just can't with this author's emphasis on the newman's mustache, (his name is Qwilleran. all the names in this book are strange) she kept mentioning it. kinda like his mustache functions like cat whiskers, it was driving me insane in the funny way.

anyway, here are some parts that made me chuckle:
"The exhibition is well hung . And special praise must be given to the matting, the textures and tones of whice are selected with taste and imagination. The artist has filled his remarkable picture frames with sailboats and other subjects that do not detract from the excellence of the moldings" (pg. 47).
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"A cat that can read is obviously superior to a newspaperman who can't catch mice" (pg. 120).

AHHHH . u like good characterization, chactertrauma, and bl? this one is just for u! it's about a dude who can't stop himself from helping people and why he's like that. and his manager who only wants him to focus on himself. uhhhh its also kinda a mystery? lotsa twists and uncovering things

its 75 chapters long and completed. i really enjoyed it. i can't say a lot on it though , bc it's not fresh on my mind :( i love the artstyle to

now here's some panels out of context :D

sigh..now i know where this is from

i watched the 1996 version. goodness gracious... i watched it because it's been on my to watch list forever. had been avoiding it because I had heard it was going to be a hard watch emotionally... they were right

i wanted to find something cool to recommend to my sibling, but now i can't reccomend it. it's a recipe for an exisential crisis. about intimacy, loneliness, and the human experience. all masked behing mechs and nukes. also parent who think getting close to their kids is worse than abandoning them ;-;

i feel so bad for shinji its not even fair. this poor kid. it's so tragic and abusive that they put him in such a bad situation, which he only accepted so he could hear anything from his father :(

i'll say the ending was a bit confusing and i didn't expect it to have such a "wholesome" ending. plus i was confused that i didn't see the angel scream (rameil?) or that scene with everything turning into crosses. Turns out, it's a franchise :O.. it probably won't watch anymore for a while. plus i think it was really good even without having understood it all

when it comes to the religious symbolism, i heard they just put it in there because it was cool but i feel like it can still be analyzed in a religious lense because you can't talk about humans if you don't talk about religion in general. i'm not gonna do it tho, my brain is already fried rn.

there was a lot of stuff that made me uncomfortable, specifically all the vague sexual stuff. the more vague, the more uncomfortable it felt. but i kinda get it. for example, (spoilers), the part where Asuka's brain is being ransacked by an angel, she's forced to relive her trauma and such. but she says afterwards that (paraphrasing) she feels dirty and violated. it reminded me of something i heard somewhere which explains that we as people are afraid of things like sex because it breaks down our bariers and vulnerability is scary and shit. which makes perfect sense in the case of this show, because it's all about intimacy and lonliness.

also the animation was so great. I really love the style of the technology

did they ever explain why the eva can only sync with 14 y/o's? i feel like i still don't understand everything. like did everyone get "combined"? the ending didn't really show that part. also, the whole combining humanity into one reminded me of arcane season 2. what's with these people trying to get rid of human suffering by making hive minds. nobody consented to that >:0

binged this anime like there was no tommorow. I'm not sure why, it was kind of on impluse.

I think i had seen a couple clips of it an thought I would check it out, out of boredom. I thought it was alright. For a moment I was getting blue lock vibes. (i never finished blue lock so my judginess is not valid but) I find blue lock to be extremely unbearable :0. The egoist thing was...cringe? and I felt like they were just throwing anime cliche characters into it for funzies. It felt very similar with this show. Each character fits a specific "trope" and doesnt always seem larger than it. very two dimensional. I also am not a huge fan of monologues. And there are a lot in this show.

that being said, i still enjoyed it. i think they are still exploring the characters somewhat. I just hope that we get really deep into whats going on with Sakura. I'm hoping there is something more than just feeling outcast. Part of the reason I might read the manga is because I want to know if there was something specific that happened to him that has him living so alone. Other than that, it's actually pretty wholesome. I like seeing him build better support for himself. It's so heartwarming to see him accept the love being thrown his way.

as for the animation. it's alright. it's got some really well made fight moments. it is always funny to see the little models in the background, fighting stiffly. But i don't animate so i'm not here to judge that.

alssooooo i reacted :O to this scene wtf!! i didn't realize this was from this show. WHY did he bite him like that! is his neck ok????

HAHAHA i dont hthingk i'm ok........so shiny

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my favorite character is probably this guy:

i have the urge to reach through my screen, grab his bang hairs into two fists, and yank them around a bit. they look very grabbable. i think it was very typical of me to like this character. thinking back, i always like this kind of character in anime. i catagorize them in my mind as "chrollo type" characters. literally the first thing he does is lie to the main character, and i was like yup, this guy is good. i also am pretty curious about what his deal is but honestly not curious enough. but i do want to see the guy flustered for sure ...hes way to calm most of the time : |

So i watched this movie last night. It's a romcom from 1994?

i dont have much going for me right now so i'm gonna write about it and my thoughts. why did i watch this movie? ... this tiktok edit :/.

Not gonna lie, i had trouble seeing the dude as a different person from Tony Stark but hey. The edit made me wanna watch this because sometimes I just want a basic romance between two pretty people. it kinda reminded me of veil (manga) where a dude is looking out for her.

It was really enjoyable, and I was absolutely tricked twice by the guy. I'm not a huge movie watcher, so i only have basic movie literacy. So i recognized the tropes, but was so delighted and tricked when they switched things up. The first time the dude goes, "i'm not damon braden" or whatever his name was, i was defintely surprised. The second time.... the romance between them fell apart in my mind. I mean yeah, they were meant for each other but dang...the lies. also the violence was not enjoyable even though it was understandable. Idk, they are perfect for each other; they are both on the same wavelength.

My favorite character was the friend. She was such a good friend to fly to a different country just to help her delusional friend. its great. Now. While i like and the romance, I gotta say that I got lost in the messaging a bit. Were they trying to say that destiny is real? or that its made by us. Are they trying to say that the perfect person exists because faith and peter found it? or that it doesn't exist because damon never existed. Am i slow? idk also i felt weird about the relationship between the friend and faith's brother. They straight up never addressed if he was having an afair or not. I mean they implied that he wasn't, but we never even understood wait was causing a strain on their relationship. She basically goes out, cheats on her husband with a swindle man. And then realizes, "well he might be having an affair, i'm not sure, but i do love him!". i personally belive faith and her friend fully cheated. but i just told myself "its a movie have fun".

HOWEVER, i gotta wonder what the deal is with "playing hard to get". that shit isnt real. or at least for me it isn't. yea, people say things they don't mean but there has to be a differnt way to gage consent. isn't it more harmful to put out a message that most women are playing hard to get? if it were me, i would feel very uncomfortable with how pushy this man is. i kinda want to hunt down a romance movie that handles this nicely but still has tension.